The Good, The Bad

My bloodwork from Wednesday came back. The good news is no gestational diabetes for me! The bad? My iron is dangerously low. Supposed to measure between 12-16 & mine is 8.5! Not good at all. Now I am on 3 iron supplements a day & you know that means also TONS OF FIBER! That part is not so fun, but not much I can do. They are trying to pump up my numbers before the babes come in a couple months. Hopefully this does the trick because I don't want any complications.

I've had to start a new "position" at work. Because getting around has become harder/painful, the dr. has left it up to me when to stop working, but wanted me to at least cut my hours or stop moving around so much. I talked to my wonderful boss, who I think is trying to hold onto me as long as she can, & created a new job for me. No longer in the teller window, now I post express box & work on various projects that Linda finds for me to do. I only work from 12:30-6:30, so the time really does go by fast. Not sure yet if it will help with my achiness. I had it yesterday & I didn't move much. Think there is no other way around it. I am just going to ache. I am giving myself until my next dr. appt. in 3 weeks & see how I am, but my dr. doesn't feel I will make it that much longer at work. Makes me sad in a way & I am not ready for all this change. One thing at a time please.

Babies have been very active. Has to be one of the best feelings in the world to feel them kick/punch. But not while I am trying to sleep. That has been their new thing. And I don't eat anything sugary before bed. Think they just think that because I am up going to the bathroom, that means it is ok for them to wake up. Stinkers. Look forward to my next ultrasoun in 2 weeks. Can't wait to see how much they've changed & to make sure Baby A is really a boy. She struggled a bit to see his "goods", so I wanna make sure it is all still the same. There was no doubt about Baby B, he was very proud of what he had going on!

Thank goodness for 3 day weekends! I can rest up & spread out all the stuff I need to get done, instead of rushing around trying to finish things. And then paying for it later. I am excited to meet up with my sis-n-law to work on the baby shower. Interested to see what all she has planned. Should be fun.

Getting there

Had probably one of the most amazing moments so far during my pregnancy. I've had other great moments, but this makes it so much more real. I felt my babies kick. I've been feeling it for a little while but never when I actually touched my belly. I just pushed down gently & there it was! Was a bit strange at first, but by far the most amazing thing ever! Jason even got to feel it too. Think it freaked him out at first but then he thought it was pretty cool.

Now onto some news about Jason. He starts school this Monday at Bates. He isn't happy at Nordstrom's anymore & it is time for him to make a change. He will still be working there of course while going to school. So yep, that leaves me to take care of the boys when they arrive. Thankfully my mom is spending 6 weeks (or more!) with us when they arrive. What a huge help that will be. To some the timing of this might be wrong, but people do this sort of thing all the time & although it is hard, they make it work. This is to benefit our families future, which is all that matters to me. I know this next year will be hard, but I am so proud of Jason. This cannot be easy for him either.

Our last dr. appt went really well. Babies heartbeats are still great. Go back in a few weeks for the glucose test. Not really looking forward to that, but you do what you've got to do, right? I got my pre-registration papers for the hospital too. I had a mini-breakdown then. Right there in the dr. office. I know it is coming up, but it is just scary. We also talked about the fact that I will have a scheduled c-section. But we would talk more about that at my next appointment. I guess that is comforting to me in a way. Now my mom will know for sure when to show up. It hasn't been easy going through this without her here with me, so I am beyond thrilled that she will be here for this. Not that she would EVER miss this for the world. These are her first you know!

BIG ultrasound

Our ultrasound went really good on Monday. Couldn't believe that they measure EVERY inch of those 2 babies. They are both doing great, very active little turkeys. Baby A is head down at the moment & Baby B is head-up, but kinda to the side. Explains the little twinges I get in my side! Baby B was very much the camera hog, everytime the poor u/s tech tried to get just an image of Baby A, Baby B would stick his foot or hand or head right in the way. I think that one is going to be our little trouble maker! But it really was great to see them moving around. Baby A was difficult to tell the sex at first, so it was off to Baby B. Once she moved the little wand over, Baby B was not shy about a thing.... He is a boy & is sooo proud of it! :) After taking his measurments, the u/s tech tried again to tell the sex of Baby A, she is pretty sure it is also a boy. Hopefully it stays the same whenever I go in for my next u/s. I like saying, "my boys". :)
It was such a huge relief to know they are both doing great. Baby A is 12oz. Baby is 13oz. Can't believe it! They actually look like little babies now, not some strange creatures.

We are going to register tomorrow, so I am excited for that. Their nursery is nearly done... just little odds & ends we need now. Can't get over how fast this is all going. But it is so exciting.

Total Freak

My appt is what, 6 days away? I am totally freaking out. I always, always get myself worked up over this stuff & everything turns out fine. I don't know what my deal is. I am so freaked out about this ultrasound. For whatever reason I have this thought in my head that the babies are dead. Don't ask me why I think this. I've felt little twinges on both sides off & on lately. Their heartbeats were great on Christmas Eve & my bloodwork came out great. This is such a big milestone, if that is what you want to call it. We've got all this baby gear set up in their nursery & my fear is that it will be all taken away. Sometimes feels like this is all a big blur or something. I haven't totally forgotten all the stuff I did to get to this point. All the pokes & Doctors all up in my business. I think after struggling that long, a part of me just expected it not to happen for us, & even now, with my big gut hanging over my pants, I am still sort of in denial & thinking it is all just a dream. When I wake up, it will all be gone.
I know stressing isn't good for the babies or myself, & I am trying to chill out, really I am. Just want them to be ok & healthy. And the thought of them not, makes my heart ache. I loved them even when they weren't a "them". When they were just little blastocysts. I love the ones that are in storage for goodness sakes! Those are "future babies". Maybe this is all hormonal? Who knows? I've been in this weepy stage for awhile now, maybe that is what is going on.
Everything will be ok. I know this somewhere in my pea brain. Just needed to vent. Jason & I are putting one of the cribs together tomorrow, so that is pretty exciting. We've come a long way!

For Christia: Here are the links to our furniture & bedding..... :)
http://www.toysrus.com/product/index.jsp?productId=3245139 -crib

http://www.toysrus.com/product/index.jsp?productId=3382626 changing table
http://www.toysrus.com/product/index.jsp?productId=3045325 bedding

Will we or won't we?

Sadly we have to wait until we are 20 weeks to have our ultrasound, which is really only 9 days away. I suppose I can wait a bit longer! :) Our appt is on Jan. 12 @ 7:15am! Kinda early, but I don't care, I am anxious. Just hoping I can hold all that water they want me to drink. I really am trying not to get my hopes up, just in case 1 or both babies are not positioned right, but gosh, I hope they are!
We got our bloodwork back....no sign of down syndrome or cystic fibrosis. That is a relief.
I got our changing table put together, think I may have over-done it, cause I was pretty achy afterwords, but it was sooo worth it. Turned out really nice. Our cribs should be here early next week. Jason is in charge of putting those together. My days of putting baby stuff together I think is over! I ordered our bedding too, should be getting that next week as well. May seem soon for all of this, but I really want to get as much done now so I can chill out later. I am excited too about decorating that nursery, so that doesn't help much either.
I am only 18 weeks, but I am really starting to slow down a bit. Thought I had more time before this set in. I know that I have twins, so it is different, but sometimes I feel really helpless & sometimes even useless. It is something I am just going to have to accept.

Well, keep your fingers crossed we will find out what we are having & that they babes' are healthy.

No Luck

No u/s for us. It has to be done in a different building & since it was Christmas Eve, they were closed. Now I have to wait. Which might not be such a bad thing since I am a little over 17 weeks & I know the closer I can get to 20 weeks, the better the odds that there won't be a mistake in them telling us the gender. And I can go shopping! We should hear from them on either Monday or Tuesday so I might wait until I am 19 weeks or so to make the appt. I've waited this long, what's a couple more weeks. :) But on the flip side, Jason got to hear their heartbeats for the first time. Baby on the left was found right away (145), but baby on the right was being difficult as usual. This was my 3rd time hearing them & each time that little turkey moves around & makes it hard for them to capture the heartbeat. Jason knew this, but was freaking out a bit. Dr. finally got it for a second only to loose it, but eventually he got it (150). He measured my tummy & since they don't use a real guideline for multiples, I measure at 26 weeks!! I am really only 17!! EEKKK! I am just waiting for someone to ask how many more weeks I have left until I deliver, & it is more like 4 1/2 months or so I have left!! Add it to the list of things we have to laugh about! You got to laugh about it, cause crying just isn't going to cut it. So far everything is going great. Hopefully once we have that u/s, they babes will be ok & growing at the pace they should be.

Counting the Hours

I know it is has been a long time since posting on here. Don't think many people would find it interesting hearing all my paranoid thoughts & feelings. So I figured I should just keep it too myself. I am 17 weeks now. In a few hours we have our appt. It is 3 am & I am up, but I went to bed like at 7!! I am soooo old. I know I have to have some bloodwork done & I am hoping an ultrasound too. I am going to beg & plead for one at least. :) Many of my twin-mommas'-to-be have already found out what they are having by this time, so I am going to ask if we can find out the same. I am excited & anxious. Trying not to get my hopes up too high, just in case they make me wait until 20 weeks, but still, if I can at least see my babies & have pics of them to show to the family, I think that would be a wonderful Christmas gift. I haven't seen my little peanuts since 10 weeks, so I know they look much different now. It is hard not knowing & I am uber impatient. But, I've waited a long time for this, so if we have to wait, I guess a few more weeks won't kill me!

We ordered our cribs & changing table the other day. That is our Christmas gifts. We figured we've got twins on the way, & honestly, Jason & I do not need anything anyways, so it is only right that it should all go towards the nursery. I am getting excited about decorating, have a few ideas, but just waiting on the ultrasound. My ma-n-law got us a great glider, which I love, so that was our first piece of furniture in there. My mom got us a great tandem buggy & 2 swings.

Can't believe how fast this all is going. I've been trying to enjoy it, but it makes me worry a little that this whole pregnancy is just flying by. I've waited so long for this & I want to enjoy it, but it needs to slow down just a tad. I might be saying something different in a month or two, but right now I wanna enjoy this. Who knows if we will be lucky enough again for this to happen.
I will post any news I get from our appt. today. Keep your fingers crossed we can find out the sexes of our babies. Merry Christmas!